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boyzzz [21 Nov 2005|07:41pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Michael Buble-fever ] oh wow. soooo things are finally clarified. i think. well, i said it straight out to his face. i think i might made it seem like we were breaking up, but it turned out okay. i said the cliches. "we're moving too fast, i feel like we should be better friends before we say anything's official" weirdly enough, i meant it all quite sincerely. i think. single, but seeing someone. still, i'm not having to answer to anyone's dissappointments, expectations, needs, wants, and most of all demands to be someone im not. single, for a few more weeks at least. i have a few weekends to get it all outta my system. i CAN get it outta my system. i WANT to get it outta my system. for him. it's worth it. i think. but what is he thinking?! he wants something serious, something intense, something i am just not ready for. i was the girl who saw a different boy every weekend, flirted with the best of them, broke hearts, conquered even the best of the manwhores. it's not bragging; i'm not proud; it's not even self pity- it's just how it was. yeah sure i dated who doesnt? yeah i met guys i liked, who i connected with, but i wasn't ready for commitmentfor more than a week. and those who tried got shutdown. i guess i'm ready for commitment now. i think. ♥| love always

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